Happy Happy!

That’s what I am and what I wish for everyone around me!

The past year for me was one of the best of my lives. I got married to the one I love. We made a lovely house together, got a dog and made a life for ourselves. A life that we have been dreaming about for as long as 15 years. A life we have fought all the odds for and come out stronger than we ever were. It’s so amazing that I have to pinch myself to remember that I am awake!

Unfortunately this year also saw me through some really heartbreaking disappointments. I have emotionally lost a lot that I held precious. I don’t know if I will ever get it back again. It just goes to prove there is no such thing as absolute relationships. I am trying not to hold it in my heart, but it is difficult at times. All I can do is concentrate on all the good, and just leave no space for this unhappiness in my life.

Doing this is easy. How can it not be? The sheer love and warmth in my home is enough for me to leave the troubles at the door step. Ours is a happy home. And we do our best to make it happier by the day. It’s also wonderful to know how many people are happy for us and how they seem to be enveloping our lives with their love. It’s so real, you can almost touch it.

And now I enter a new phase! 2009 is going to be an interesting year. I wonder if the problems I face will work themselves out. I wonder how I will ride this global recession and still do well at work. I wonder how to make an even better life for me and my husband. I wonder if I will finally be able to make my self a healthier person. I wonder!!!

I wonder if I will be able to write poetry again or will it only be prose. I wonder if Ferrari will win again. I wonder if I will learn to cook Indian and Chinese food. I wonder if I will do business in Curacao. I wonder if JJ will enjoy yoga with me.I wonder if I will have a dream holiday this year. I wonder how may nieces and nephews will be born. I really wonder!!!

Oh it’s such a great feeling to know that there is so much waiting for me! I am happy it’s 2009.

Here’s wishing all of you the same enthusiasm I feel. Have a wonderful year ahead!